Looking back, I've found that I don't miss who I was, but I miss a few key elements of what made life a little more exciting.
I used to spend a lot more time with the few friends I spent time with outside of college classes and work.
We generally just wasted the days, causing trouble and glaring at the people who considered our actions "distasteful".
I also spent a decent amount of time drinking and going to festivals with those friends, and while I don't think I want to bring alcohol back into my life, I do miss going out.
I miss the fireworks and the useless conversations.
I miss the touches and the appreciation I felt from my long gone friends.
I suppose I really just miss being a part of something, no matter how troublesome that "something" was.
I am certainly happy to be in a much more stable place now.
I love my husband, and how much he works to keep us happy.
I love my home, and how it's always better there than anywhere else.
I love my job, and that it's not always rushed.
And I love the freedom I have for most of the day, and even the silence that goes along with it.
I just wish I were a little more outgoing.
Something to make connecting with other people easier.
I wish AJ , my cousin, were closer.